“To the world she’s a fiery rap superstar at the top of her game. But Nicki Minaj has revealed a secret heartache that has hung over her like a shadow for years. The 32-year-old has spoken openly for the first time about having an abortion when she was a teenager in a candid new cover interview with Rolling Stone magazine.
Detailing the horror of making the decision to terminate a pregnancy at such a young age, she said: ‘I thought I was going to die. I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I’d ever gone through. ‘[It’s] haunted me all my life. It’d be contradictory if I said I wasn’t pro-choice. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t have anything to offer a child.’
The star first hinted at the subject in her 2008 track Autobiography, in which she referred to herself as ‘mommy’.
The topic returned to the spotlight earlier this month when she showed off her vulnerable side in new track All Things Go.Referring to a child who would have been 16, the same age as her beloved younger brother Micaiah, she raps: ‘My child with Aaron would have been 16, any minute/ So in some ways I feel like Caiah is the both of them/ It’s like he’s Caiah’s little angel, looking over him.’
Although it is not known who ‘Aaron’ is, the man who she fell pregnant with was believed to have been an older man from Queens, New York who she met while studying at the revered LaGuardia performing arts school.It’s a shockingly honest revelation from the tough hip-hop hitmaker, who prefers to keep her private life out of the public domain. However, she insists that she wants her fans to know more about her past through the material on her recently-released third record, The Pinkprint. In her interview with Rolling Stone, she adds: ‘One of my goals was to give people a glimpse into my personal life, because it’s something I’ve kept very private.’”
She will definitely reach out to a lot more women with this revelation. It’s unfortunate when it happens and a very hard decision.
“One of my goals was to give people a glimpse into my personal life, because it’s something I’ve kept very private. I had to learn to do something as simple as sleep alone. I struggled with ‘Do I express these feelings?’ And I decided there’s no reason for me to hide. I’m a vulnerable woman, and I’m proud of that. With a video like ‘Anaconda,’ I’m a grown-ass fucking woman! I stand for girls wanting to be sexy and dance, but also having a strong sense of themselves. If you got a big ol’ butt? Shake it! Who cares? That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be graduating from college. I hate when artists brag about not writing rhymes, or doing things really quickly, and then it’s not great. It’s ill when Jay Z or Wayne say it, because the results are great. When they’re not? Sit your ass down and figure out something new to say! [On the deaths of Mike Brown and Eric Garner] It’s sickening, and I’ve been reading so many people saying, ‘Why are we surprised?’ That’s what’s really sad: that we should somehow be used to being treated like animals. It’s gotten to the point where people feel like there’s no accountability: If you are law enforcement and you do something to a black person, you can get away with it. [Kanye West] He was the unofficial spokesman for hip-hop, and he got torn apart. And now you haven’t heard him speaking about these last couple things, and it’s sad. Because how many times can you be made to feel horrible for caring about your people before you say, ‘Fuck it, it’s not worth it, let me live my life because I’m rich, and why should I give a fuck?’”